Accomplishment or failure. POP LO

I present to you..... 1, check, 1.



The trained...... SOLDIERS.

3rd Sergeant Afiq, Recruit Pow Eamon, 3rd Sergeant Ryan, 3rd Sergeant ENRIQUE.

The long overdue parade is finally done and over with. The jockey caps, some floating along the river, but mostly back with their owners. 17 weeks is over.

Transforming from this:

To this.

The journey from becoming a civilian, to a trained soldier, took 17 weeks. 17 long, hellish weeks. What's worse was that we were in NINJA coy(company in short). 

Before I enlisted, I knew nothing about Tekong. I knew nothing about Ninja, Kestrel, or what so ever. I just knew that it was an island far away from home. I wanted to give up so many times, because it was that grueling, for me at least. Ninja's standard was, as they say, "up there". I was never proud to be a Ninja, because I hated it there. But my views and perspective changed when my time was nearing as a Ninja recruit. 

A medal for coming in second for frisbee on games' day. And the small cookie is for getting a Silver for IPPT.

The honor was mine when we were given the games' day shirt.

Best damn shirt in BMTC.

I felt the chill, the need to do well for Ninja. And when we cheered, together as a company, everything changed. I was suddenly proud to be a Ninja recruit. We represented one of, if not, the top company in BMTC, we were indeed, "up there". 

I did myself proud, I maintained my silver for my IPPT, and got myself a medal to bring home. A proof, if you will, to show that my time inside Tekong wasn't wasted. But I somehow got myself injured during the last week in Tekong. I went to the medical center, and I was deemed unfit for the 24KM route march, and the Graduation Parade. I thought, "That's it, game over". 17 weeks have just gone to waste in one trip to the medical center. I talked every commanders. I spoke to my Platoon commander, my Platoon sergeants, my Company's officer in command, my Company's sergeant major, I asked to see the school's Company Officer. But to no avail. I gave up, I had to. But I did get to throw my jockey cap when I booked out with 18 others on Friday morning, while the main body of the company prepared for their 24km route march. 

This journey has been one hell of a ride. Ups and downs came day in, day out. First, I got bald for the first time. Then, I got myself my first girlfriend. Then I did my max repetition for pullups, 19, and got my first silver for IPPT. I made friends, and enemies. Almost got in fights, and ate food that was not meant to be eaten. I went through rain and shine, in the jungle, and in the camp. I shed blood, sweat and tears, and got my heart broken when I lost my first girlfriend. Shot live rounds, threw a grenade, dug my own grave, pooped in the wild, went 6 days without brushing my teeth and showering, and learnt more stuffs than I ever did in school. 

The two jokers in my bunk. Recruit Ong Jia Sheng, and Recruit Zulfaiz

Recruit Tay Yong Sheng. Finally got to take a photo with this bugger. REGULAR LO!

2nd Lieutenant Daryl. My Platoon's commander. Can you believe he's only 20?

Recruit Ong. Buddies for 17 weeks, can't believe time flew past so quickly. An honor to be his buddy.

Recruit Man Yong and Recruit Jing Yuan at the bottom. Crazy ass bunkmates I will never forget.

Never thought I will ever say this, but damn am I going to miss all of them. The tekan sessions, a.k.a punishments, the marching sessions, meals at the cook house, creeping around doing restricted stuffs like buying drinks, making fools out of ourselves, and of course the field camp. I'm so going to miss, sleeping on the upper bunk of the bed on the second floor, the sea breeze, the ultimate pitch black sky filled with stars and a big bright moon, the scorching hot sun shining down on us mercilessly as training carries on, the taunts each company does to each other, and all of the songs we echo daily without fail. 

For now, I will take my long awaited week long break, and hope for the best. 

Tough days don't last, tough men do.

Duty, Honor, Country, Ninja Company.

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Counting my lucky stars.

Remember when I was counting down to my days in army? Yeah, that was some time back.
I'm currently approaching my seventh week in army and I'm beginning to count down to my days away from the faraway island. Approximately ten to eleven weeks left and I'm done with that place! Can't wait. I really hate it in there. Anyways, back to my civilian life.

Yesterday was the fourth time we went out together, K and I, and let's just say that I feel really blessed to have her by my side every time I book out from camp. I just wish time would slow down when we're together, because 15 hours passed in a blink of an eye.

Details of the events aside, we caught The Dark Night Rises yesterday night with a few of my friends. It was not bad. I know nothing much about the story line of the trilogy, but the action was good though. Um, 4/5 for me.

Taken last week.

Silly girl got me a gift. *Murdy's my nickname.

Got bored during the car ride last week.

I also realized I've lost 5 kilograms in 6 weeks. It took me 6 months to gain that 5 kilograms and now I'm back to 55kg. I feel so bony and scrawny, though I'm much stronger than I ever was before.

She also got me hooked onto this song unconsciously.

Applying the stuffs I learnt from a book I read, I must appreciate all the little things in life. They call me cheesy, but what do they know. Thank you for being so awesome. I've never been out with your friends before but I know I'd be a really awkward turtle if we were to do that. You, on the other hand, managed to make them, my friends, like you by being yourself. You have no idea about all the nice things they say about you. Yesterday was magical, it really was. 'Like my iPod stuck on replay' - Iyaz, I keep thinking about them in my mind. Thank you for replying to my stupid pick up line.

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Last but not least.

And up until now I've sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness.
Because none of it was ever worth the risk.Well you are the only exception.

Lessons in life.

If anyone of you whom used to be a part of my life is reading this, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I never thought this day would come as quickly as it did.

Did really mundane stuffs like strolling in the park in simple attire, to sitting down on the bench and just chatting. From star gazing, to people watching, everything was much more enjoyable than it ever was before. Hours passed like minutes, time flew past without realization.

To use your words 'It's hard to find someone with so much in common as you.. And that feeling when you do'. And to that, I nod my head umpteen times in agreement. Every story has a beginning, I don't know where my story is at right now. But every single one of you have taught me different things, in different ways. But they are all lessons I appreciate. I never thought I would say this so quickly, but I believe I've finally moved a step up on the ladder. I used to say you were the ultimate one I wanna be with in the end. Guess life has it's ways of proving me wrong.

I just know that June 2012 has been quite a special one for me. And 300612 was the pinnacle of the year. Appreciation comes in different forms, mine is to share with anyone and everyone reading this little space of mine, my feelings and thoughts.

Yesterday still feels like a dream to me.

Main point is that every second spent with K is time well spent and enjoyable. Kinda takes my mind off of the army stuffs, like as if I was a civilian again. But sadly, time waits for nobody and I'm heading back to camp tomorrow. So, goodbye for now.

Sisters, 7th JUNE. Time flies whether you're having fun or not.

When less is more.

COUNTDOWN : 43 HOURS TO DAYS IN ARMY.


The moment I realized that my time as a boy was limited, I began asking all of my friends out. Over the past four days, I have stayed home only to eat, shower and sleep. I've spent more hours outside, than at home. The past four days were really awesome. So awesome that I felt that this was the last goodbye or something.

Went for a Karoke session with friends last Friday. Had a blast singing, shouting, screaming, rapping, talking and laughing in the booth. Spent 4 to 5 hours doing that. It was fun, expensive, but fun. Appreciate  my friends taking time out to spend time with me.

Old school photo. Panzi (or Rainer), me and Keith.

Spent the majority of Saturday out with three people. But I only managed to get a picture with the girls.

Jiamin on the left, Linghui or the right.

There was supposed to be a more than just the four of us, but the rest couldn't make it. "It's gonna be awkward" I thought to myself before the day began. But it turned out to be a great night. Dinner, walks on the streets, laughing at the slightest stuffs, talking about anything and everything, and chilling out in a coffee house, what more could I have asked for? I never really thought that we could get to this point where we would be comfortable, just the four of us. When less is more.

Sunday was just dinner with the family. But a few of my aunts and a cousin of mine joined the seven of us. I felt really special being treated this way. Received red packets as forms of blessings. They all wished me luck and gave solid advice. I'm so grateful for everything I have in life, especially my family.

Three of the ones present on Sunday are missing in this picture. 

Yesterday was "da bomb". Met up with two of my closer polymates. Dinner, walks and talks, and played pool.

Hafis, the Muay Thai.

Yong Sheng, the monk. Need to take a proper picture with this boy right here.

Never fail to make me laugh, speak my mind and discuss about anything and everything. Bid goodbyes by wishing each other health in the army. And to survive it and text each other when we're out of camp. Survival is essential in the army because of the recent cases of deaths.

Headed to Arab Street to try Shisha next. With the usual clique, we stayed in the shop for around 2 hours and had countless of topics to chat about. Shisha was really mundane. Though it is medically more harmful than smoking a cigarette, I don't think anyone can get addicted to it. I've tried it once, and I don't think I will try it again. The company was great, the atmosphere was okay, the shisha, ngeh. Had supper and played snooker till 5 in the morning. Day well spent.

The next time you see me, I'll be a recruit with no hair.

Another life's first ticked off the 'to-do-list'. 

When you get older, you realize that less is more. And friends become part of your family. 

Love story ; A broken one.

I wasn't looking when I stumbled onto you, must have been fate. -Eminem

Ok let's start. I'll start by saying that
1) I've never had so much to talk to a girl I like, in person.
2) I've never had a girl sitting beside me on the way home in a bus and just sharing the moment.
3) I've never had a girl sign on me(cast for my broken arm), with <3 in it.
4) I've never met a girl I like, while doing something I enjoy.

To summarise things up, she's really the first girl I think I would go out with or even try everything to be with her.
Now, let's officially start.

I joined the Frisbee Sports Club on January 2010. I was persuaded by a few friends of mine to try it out. And the club was really small when we first joined, and then they had plans to expand it. May came, and the club got expanded real big. People swarmed in to train with us, and well, I didn't really noticed her. Then people started leaving the club because they got bored of it, but she stayed. Then we started seeing more of each other. And one fine day after training, the team decided to go over to the mall to have lunch together. I sat, directly opposite her. I was kinda shy at first, but she was really really friendly. 6 of us sat at one table and had buffet for lunch. We talked, laughed, joked around and just enjoyed ourselves. I didn't know I could be so natural around girls.
And so coincidentally, we live a couple of streets away from each other. So we took the same bus back home that day. I sat next to her, but we didn't chat, I guess we still weren't that close. Time passed, and trainings after trainings, we got to know each other more. I added her on MSN and chatted with her.
Blablabla, forwarding a couple of months later. I broke my elbow during a competition, but I still attended trainings, to see her of course. And when I had my cast on, she actually signed on it! She wrote "Get well soon! ***(Her name), <3."
She signed it while we were on our way home in the bus, with her sitting beside me. I was lost for words and we actually sat down after the bus ride to chat for a few minutes.

Well, I guess I suck at telling a story, you must be in my shoes to know how it felt like. Everything was so.... dreamy. Her grabbing hold of my shirt when we watched the competition together, she sitting by me, smiling to me, texting me, and just being there with me was all I could ever ask for. And you know what, just by typing this paragraph down, I'm starting to feel the heartache because everything is gone. Tho nothing ever started, it's gone. I even got the same phone as her so that we could bbm. But I guess she will never know the reason behind it.

I really liked you alot, so much that I think I would call it love. I know it's a strong word, but you never gave me a chance to prove myself. I think I still like you, even after trying to fall for another girl. Nothing worked out between the other girl and I, and nothing worked out between us. I really really like you, I really do.
I must end here, I'm getting kinda too sad.
Sorry for this nonsense you just read.

11:11

There's this girl that I like, she don't really know about my feelings.

But I'm making an effort to make something work. Through the simplest way I know of,

chatting with her everyday without fail.

I've been a wuss in the past, I didn't dare to make a move on the girls I like. I've had it with the way I was acting in the past, so I decided to make a change. I'm prepared to

throw everything I have in, even if I get nothing in return.

So I popped her a question, "Do you believe in 11:11?". She don't.

But I do, I believe in it so much that I make a wish everytime I see it appear on my phone or my

computer screen.

And do you have any clue how much impact it had on me when I saw you today and you

didn't see me.

I saw you with a guy, the both of you, alone. The first thing that came to my mind were

negative thoughts. I thought he was your boyfriend, I thought it was over like this.

I thought everything I had done, was all going down the drain. But I told myself to hold on,

and to keep moving on. Until the day that you get attached, tell me straight to my face that

you're in a relationship and would appreciate it if I were to not bother you any longer. I was light-headed, when I saw the both of you. Though it might an innocent friendship, but it

isn't what it's like going on in my mind.

Signing off for now