My form teacher of four years, just uploaded a few pictures from the secondary school days. And I saw something I wrote while I was back in Secondary one, when I was still 13 years old.
This is what I wrote.
Hobbies : Playing Maple Story, playing soccer, watching TV.
3 things I like : Sword, soccer, basketball.
3 things I dislike : Tie, earrings, motorbikes.
My favorite food : Long John Silver
My favorite TV show : Happy Fish(?)
My favorite movie : Troy
How much I have changed since that day on. I now like motorbikes, I dislike Maple Story, I don't like to watch television, and I don't know what the fuck Happy Fish is.
It's funny how people change so, so much, in such a short period of time. I used to be so short, everyone treated me like a little boy. In 5 years time, I am now taller than most of the people I used to be shorter than.
Physical comparisons aside, I like how naive I was and how innocent my thinking used to be. Nothing was dark, nothing was stupid, everything was straightforward and simple. Now everything is so messed up.
I don't even know what religion I wanna believe in. It's so fucked up that I went to the temple to confess. I was praying and said everything on my mind. I said I kinda wanna believe in satanism, I wanna be an anarchist. I told Buddha so many things, I know it sounds kinda weird saying I "told", I felt guilty. This religion I was born and raised to believe in, is kinda fading now.
I wanna return to being the naive kid that knew nothing, the kid that got bullied on constantly, the kid that craved attention yet not liking any on him, the kid that teachers doted on, the kid that got into so much trouble trying to show that he was a rebel. I wanna be young again.
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