Ambitions, My father.

Do you still remember what you wanted to be when you grow up? And now that you are all grown up and working, is the job you're holding the one you always dreamt to have when you were a kid?

The usual job ambitions kids have are police officers, doctors/nurses, fire fighters, actors/actresses and superheroes. They all have something in common, and that is to help the society. But mine wasn't the same.

I have always admired my father. He used to tell me stories of how he trained to be muscular, how to fight off the bad people and he used to teach me "kung-fu". And one day, I swore that I will grow up to be like my father. Fear nothing, and be feared. But as I grow, my ambitions started to drift away. He was not what I always thought he was. He drinks, smokes, gambles, makes the family unhappy, spouted vulgarities, was rough and didn't dote on us(my sisters and I) as much as we wanted him to. He wasn't the perfect dad I always looked up to.

But recently, I saw how weak he really is. Not the exterior, it's his interior that needed support. He recently got a surgery on his hernia problem. And he wasn't the iron man I always thought he was. His physical strength got so limited that he actually asked me to work for him for a day. I can finally prove to him that I am no longer the kid that has barely enough strength to lift weights. And he actually introduced me to his friends as his "junior". I thought it was a compliment right until he told them other stories. He told them that me being this tall was normal in the family. He told them that my cousins are stood at an average of 1.9m tall, and he also told them that I was working on a project that builds cars that speeds on the road. None of the stories he told there are true. I am actually one of, if not, the tallest in the family and the project I am working on, it's just an eco car that can barely reach 60mph. I don't know why he find the person I am, and the things I do, such a disgrace.

Dad, I'm sorry for being such a disappointment.