END OF THE.. year!

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Here's another year end post.

GRADUATING FROM TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC

Can't believe how I'm actually missing schooling life. It was such a dreadful thing, to pull myself out of bed in the late morning and head to school. Where lessons were barely long enough for me to take a nap in, and lunch was optional. Breaking the rules were still okay, if you don't get caught. Now that I'm in the army, working and stuff, I regret not enjoying my schooling life more. 

OFF TO THAILAND WE WENT.

Leaving the comfort of our home and our own country, we traveled, for the first time, to a foreign land, as a family. Took my first ride via the plane, and it was so damn awesome. I cannot forget the view from the hotel. The bright lights of the city, and the strong cold wind at night, and the feeling I had when I realized that it was the first time I've traveled away from home to a place filled with strangers. 

 ARMY CALLED; ENLISTED.

The amount of weight I lost was crazy.

One of the most dreadful thing any Singaporean son can, and will, go through, the army. Shaved my head bald, enlisted with a heavy heart, left my family in Singapore and trained like a dog every single day. There was blood, sweat and tears under rain or shine. I got fit, and really skinny during the four months inside. And then four months passed, and I passed out in an instant. 

But there was some stuffs that happened during the long four months. 

Then came Potassium.

I've never posted a proper picture of her, or of us, before on my blog. So this is the first time you're gonna see them.

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Never thought that I would get a girl friend any time soon, much less while I was serving the army on a faraway island. She was the best thing that has happened to me in my entire life. She was the crazy dream that I NEVER thought I would live. Getting to know her was my privilege, being together with her was my honour. But like any dreams, they all come to an end.  As much as I wish that we're still together, we're not. I hate to admit that I still harbor hopes and wishes that we might still somehow get back together because I miss her so damn much.

PASSING OUT AS A NINJA.

I still remember telling my friends and family, "I will never befriend anyone from camp.". But I guess things changed and friendships were made. I can't believe the boy who used to have just a couple of friends, now have so many different cliques of friends that weekends are burned by spending time with each of the cliques. Guess things change as time passes. 

20 CAME AND LEFT 19 BEHIND

Leon and Roderick

20th came and left silently. Spent the night at the Universal Studios Singapore with some friends. But only Leon and Roderick stuck around. As usual, my birthday was not special. Wanted and expected so much more for this year's birthday, but was once again left disappointed. 

THEN MARIE HAPPENED.

"Who is Marie?" one might ask.

This is the Marie I know before I met her.

This is the Marie I know on the first day we met! IN SINGAPORE.

Yes! My first penpal came to Singapore!!! Another dream come true. Oh my.. What can I say?

She's FREAKIN' AWESOME.

Brought her to the Singapore Flyer and she was too damn adorable. Her reaction when she first entered the Flyer was "Ehhhhhhhhhh? :D". Hands down the cutest reaction I've ever seen. Had her taste some local cuisine.

That's Rojak on the left, and Ice Kachang on the right.

She dislike them both. When asked about the taste, she said "Strange" to Rojak and "Fresh" to Ice Kachang. Who in the world replies this way!? Unique eh? That's Marie for you.

A bottle of sake she bought for me from Japan.

She's so nice to have bought something for me. I'm so glad I found her profile on the penpal website a year back.

Because she had stuffs to do in the daylight, we could only meet twice and both times were at night.

The second time we went out, I brought her to meet my family. My mom cooked up some normal dinner and she had trouble eating them as well. My family loved her, so do I. Had such a great time with her.

Then we went out after dinner, with my sisters and my sister's boyfriend, to Clarke Quay to drink.

From left to right; My sister's boyfriend, Christopher, Audrey, Marie, me and Alice.

Drank a fair amount of alcohol that night. Thankfully for my pay, which included back payment, otherwise I couldn't have afforded to bring her out around Singapore. 

Had her try out the flaming cocktails, Flaming Lamborghini and Waterfall. She liked the waterfall. We went bar hopping around the area. It was so much fun, especially after she got a little high. We just kept laughing.

She's just too beautiful.

And when the time to head home was nearing, we took one last picture before sending her home. It was such a perfect night, couldn't have asked for more. She's like this crazy dream that was near impossible to live out in reality. Who would've thought that I would meet someone online from FRANCE, and that we would become friends. Then she would travel to Singapore, and I have the chance to meet her and hang out with her. Sent her to her apartment's door step and she whispered something to me when we hugged, "When are we doing this again?". I whispered back, "Next year, Japan.". Those few seconds I will forever remember as the best thing that happened to me after the break up. 

Funny how things happen oh so randomly.
How pieces fall nicely together, and how some things fall apart so suddenly.
It's an utmost honor of mine to have the chance to befriend someone from another
end of the world, and to have the chance to bring her around this little red dot.
2012 has been nothing but a hell of a crazy roller coaster ride.
Thank you for being a part of it, Marie Caron.

21st CAME NEXT, AND I BECAME ADDICTED TO CLUBBING.

Have been clubbing a whole lot in recent months. Just a couple of pictures taken when we were out clubbing in November. 

Then we went clubbing for what was supposed to be the last night, and spent a fortune over there. Had so much fun catching with people of the past and present.

Airforce mates.

Then we went clubbing on the last Friday of the year! Had so much fun. Kinda addicted to clubbing, but I don't know why. Maybe it's just a form of stress relief, or to escape harsh reality for a few hours. Or maybe I just want to be happy for awhile. 

That's pretty much it for 2012. It's been such a crazy roller coaster ride. I also realised I've changed a hell lot. From..

To..

I'm sorry that I've changed so much. If only you were here by me, maybe I would've stayed the same person I was few months back. But since you're not, and maybe because the person I used to be wasn't enough for anyone, I figured a change was needed. Y'know, I haven't been happy. Not quite happy enough. I still sit up alone, before I go to bed once in a while, trying to figure out what went wrong where and when. I still reminisce the times we had. I haven't really gotten over you, partly because I don't want to, and partly because I can't. I've tried, trust me, I really have. 2013 better be good, I need it. If you are reading this, which I highly doubt so, I hope you're happy. Stupid Jay Chou and his love songs always get me down. 

 Before I end, I should list down some 2013 resolutions.

• Get to 70kg by 2014
• Have enough savings in my bank account
• Maybe get a tattoo?
• Travel to Japan
• Cut down on clubbing and alcohol
• Do more charity

Maybe this is the reason why I'm constantly high on alcohol. Maybe I'm afraid of doing things, so I use alcohol as a confidence booster or something. I don't know. I don't really know anything anymore.

I don't know what we said to each other before, but I always think of you when I look up and see stars shining brightly in the night sky.

2013, please be good.