Change

I don't understand how people's life just seem to fall into pieces as they move along. It's like, so unfair to me. I keep trying, but at the end of the day, I see no improvement in what so ever I've done. But their lives seem to fall into pieces so easily. They are my friends, and yes I am happy for them. But I just don't get it.
What have I done in the past that make me deserve all this things I'm going through now.

I was talking to my friend about how I've learnt to not care about what others think of me, and how they look at me. But I now realize that I do care. I do care how people look at me, think of me and speak of me. I care so much that sometimes they get into my head and mess with me.

Can't do this right now, signing off for now.