What ifs.

Holiday insomnia strikes again. Posting at 4 in the morning can never be good.

Life's flashing by, literally. Ten days have passed since my graduation ceremony, and only seven days to go before I go bald. Kinda looking forward to days in the army, because I'll be able to train my physique.

Okay, back to the main topic of this post.
What ifs.


What if everything in the past worked out, where would I be now? What if I never met her, would my life be any different? What if I had died in one of the many accidents that had happened in the past weeks instead of the victims, would the worlds of many people change?


I was born a weak baby, and have ever since been a weak person. Therefore, death has always been on my mind. I'm always thinking of what would/could kill me, and when it would occur. And since my army days are nearing, and deaths occurrence has been really recent in the army, I'm afraid I might be the next casualty.


What if I really do die from training?
This blog will forever be dead, and as will I. Many people will be grieving, hopefully. People might rejoice, because training in the camp might be put on hold due to it. My room will be vacant for the next few months. My dog will no longer be able to take a whiff of my hands. The house will be quieter. My friends can say that they have lost a friend due to an accident. I might finally find out if there's life after death.

It's a really weird post, but these are thoughts that runs through my mind constantly throughout my existence.
CLICK . < This is a tumblr post that made me shed tear. Here's a little peek of the post.

"You're dead, you're gone. There is no going back, everything is over. You don't have to live in pain anymore, but everyone else will. What are your parents going to think? What about your little brother, or little sister? What are they going to do? You're gone, you're dead. There's no going back."

I'm writing this post for fun, not a serious 'will' or any post death instructions to people whom might be related. 

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Cousin's new born.