A short lived secret that was holding so well until everything went so wrong.
2 December 2010 - 21 September 2011.
The time I took to tell myself that I still stand a chance as long as you're single.
But it turns out, the things my friend told me are true. You really are blissfully attached. I hope he treats you well, I really do. But do you know how much it hurts to see you with another dude?
21st September 2011 was the last time we met in one of my dumb dreams.
From then on, I told myself that it was enough.
I started to forget you, slowly but surely. I erased all of the memories in my mind, I really did try. But everytime you reblog something from my tumblr, I get the urge to go to your blog and see what you have posted. It's always the sweet and romantic stuffs, and it's always about how happy you are.
I don't know if I got the right guy, but he somehow became my inspiration. You seemed really close to him in that one picture.
I looked myself in the mirror and told myself "Fuck dude, why the fuck are you so scrawny and weak. You ain't going to get no chicks like her to like you if you continue living your life like this."
So on the 1st of September 2011, the road to being toned or brawny began.
It was just once a week of gym at first. But it's no longer the case anymore. The 5 weeks of holidays I had, was time well spent in the gym. I visited the gym twice a week, and I think there's a little change in me.
But last week, I looked myself in the mirror again after weighing myself. I knew I had to do something drastic. 5 times a week, that's the minimum amount of times I must exercise. I must jog twice a week and go to the gym 3 times a week. I need this, I really do. I want you to see the change in me. I'm doing this because of you.
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