To realize and to learn.

I remember saying that I was so angry because of all the raps I was listening to. I was so influenced by the raps that I started hating on everybody. But I just realized that they weren't made for us to get mad at people, they were made when the rappers were mad at people, and they just want us NOT to follow in their footsteps.
So the most recent raps I begin to listen to are really really inspiring, and they taught me alot. As usual, all the meanings and explanations were all made up by me.

As I sat down for dinner, my mom watched. We began to talk, from school work to life, to the past and the future. I told my mom, "Do you remember when you told me not to trust my friend too much?", she nodded. I continued on with my story on how they have lost all of my trust and all of the hatred I have on them are turning into inspirations for me to write down rhymes. I don't call them raps or songs, because they're just bits and pieces of my thoughts and I just jot them down, and most of them don't even rhyme.

Over the past year, I've grown up so much. I've stayed my distance, because I didn't dare to step into a friendship my mom have no trust in. You see, my mom have been my "fortune teller" for my whole entire life, and I trust her so much, I show her all of my friends' pictures so that she could tell me more about them. Her predictions, or views on my friends, have been so true. You really have to know her to believe me.

So, I'm here to tell you readers,
-help people without expecting people to help you back. Help with no regrets and no expectations.
-Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful oh, they can all get fucked. Just stay true to you so, don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful. Oh they can all get fucked, just stay true to you (Beautiful - Eminem : Relapse)
-When they push you down, you gotta get back up. (Get Back Up Feat Chris Brown - T.I. : No Mercy)
Last but not least, know that no matter what happens in your life. No matter who backstabs you and who spits on you, know that life goes on. You just gotta stand back up.

And do know that I'm here always ready to give you any type of advice you need, that are within my dictionary or capabilities to give you advices. I may not be right, but I try my best to help anyone that is worth helping.
Check back soon, or not.
Peace.